I’ve been writing this post for three days. I keep sitting down, writing, and then erasing everything I’ve written. Nothing is good enough, and most often my words get tangled up in my emotions and they don’t come out quite right. Inside I feel so conflicted. I’m sad, and scared, and angry.
I wanted to write about depression. I wanted to write about mental illness. I wanted to write about how love is sometimes not big enough, but that it doesn’t take away the value of loving. I wanted to have words that were uplifting and encouraging, but they kept coming out angry and hopeless. I knew there was hope to be found, but I couldn’t find it. I kept getting more and more angry, with God, with people, with life.
Last night I saw the movie The Giver. I won’t write a review (but you should read the book), but I did want to touch on one aspect of the movie that I thought was important given the state of affairs in the world right now. When there are terrible things happening in the world, our instinct may be to hide our heads in the sand. It might seem appealing to hide away from all the bad things, and make everything good, and erase the possibility of bad things by creating a world of peace, and sameness, where there is no trace of the bad things that have happened before. But in that, you miss out on so much. When you eliminate everything bad, or everything that could possibly lead to something bad, you think you’re safe, and happy, and good. But there is still so much good in this world. It might seem like all we see is hate and violence, poverty and pain. It might all seem hopeless, but in spite of all of that, there is love. There are people helping each other. There is music and laughter and dancing. Even with all the horrible things that happen in the world, there are things that really make life beautiful and meaningful. Hang on to those things.
I challenge all of you to find the good out there. Set a goal to make a list of five things every day that are GOOD. And if you can’t find the good, be the good.